Find Your
Ecstatic Self
Find Your
Ecstatic Self
What is your Ecstatic Self?
The you before your tendrils were pruned. Before you became what the world expected rather than what you are.
Who is Kaelan
Kaelan Strouse is an author, spiritual guide, and keeper of thresholds—the places where body and spirit, longing and belonging, self and soul meet.
His path runs through seven years in a meditative ashram, decades of devotional practice, and training across yogic and energetic traditions. Since 2020, his platform, Ecstatic Self, has supported thousands through private mentorship, retreats, workshops, and ceremonial gatherings.
Kaelan has worked with federal judges, CEOs, creatives, healers, and those navigating profound life transitions. They come not for answers, but for a rare combination of fierce authenticity, deep humility, and the conviction that nothing essential about them needs to be fixed.
He is the author of Journey to the Ecstatic Self, I Dreamt of Flight, and 48 Gateways to the Ecstatic Self. His fourth book, Ecstaticism: A Transmission from the Threshold, will be published by Sibling Rivalry Press in March 2027.
Kaelan lives in Washington, D.C. with his husband, their beloved rescue dogs, one exceptionally opinionated cat, and too many houseplants.
Why Coach with Kaelan?
This work begins with a different premise: you are not broken, behind, or unfinished.
For most of human history, people had guides. Not experts with answers, but companions who could reflect back what was essential, challenge what was false, and help others cross life’s thresholds with greater awareness and courage.
That is the spirit of this work.
Part coaching. Part mentorship. Part initiation.
Not self-improvement.
Homecoming.
Kae’s Specialties
Becoming Whole
The Body as Altar
Energetic Attunement
Crossing Thresholds
Kaelan’s Coaching
Philosophy
You are already whole
You don’t need to be fixed. You don’t need to be healed. You are already divine. There’s nothing to repair, just to remember what already is.
The journey starts where you are
You’re not behind. You’re not late. You’re not on the wrong path. Your journey has already begun…and it’s led right to where you are. Your life is your curriculum. You have everything you need to succeed.
Your body is home
Enlightenment isn’t outside of you…it’s in your breath, your hips, your grief, your laughter. You don’t need to transcend your humanity. The body is not a barrier; it’s the altar.
All is one
Nothing exists that isn’t holy. Every moment, every mistake, every shadow is part of the whole. There is no sin. You are light incarnate; you always have been.
Kae's Books
Coming March 25, 2027 · Sibling Rivalry Press
Part scripture, part confession, part love letter across lifetimes — Ecstaticism is a return to the oldest path there is: joy, embodiment, and wonder as the road home to the divine. Psalms from drowned civilizations. Teachings from the in-between. And the running commentary of a Scribe who refuses to pretend he’s above any of it.
What if the answers you seek are already within you?
In 48 Gateways to the Ecstatic Self, Kaelan Strouse guides you through a transformative journey of self-discovery, offering practices and insights to heal, awaken your true potential, and reclaim a life of joy, peace, and purpose. This mystical guide invites you to reconnect with your soul’s wisdom and step into the fullness of who you truly are.
Journey to the Ecstatic Self
This guidebook walks you through the realms of soulfulness, shadow exploration, and identity dreaming to arrive in a land of wholeness. Through exploring these exercises, stories, and meditations with Kae, you will uncover your wild, radiant self — the intrinsically aligned person that you were always meant to be. The “you” that already exists deep down at your core. Lace up those boots and get ready to Journey to the Ecstatic Self.
I Dreamt of Flight: A Fantasy Novel
18 year old Bondi Ashborne never knew he could breathe fire, never knew that the government was rounding up people like him and slamming them into concentration camps. No, all he knows is that life as a gay, quarter-dragon in a fully-human town couldn’t be harder for him.
When fate forces him to flee his home, he ends up encountering other Mythicals like himself: enigmatic naga,…
Step Into the Mystical Forest of Your Soul
Designed to accompany 48 Gateways to the Ecstatic Self, this lush 48-card oracle deck invites you on a transformative journey to rediscover your luminous truth. Let these moonlit gateways guide you down mossy paths, through shadowed glens, and into the uncharted depths of your being.
Order the Deck Now and awaken the ecstasy within:
Intimacy • Body • Presence • Connection
Ecstatic Retreats are immersive, in-person experiences devoted to embodiment, authentic connection, and joyful integration. They are spaces of brotherhood where participants are invited to slow down, turn inward, and reconnect with themselves, one another, and the natural world.
In 2026, Kaelan’s retreats lean more fully into embodiment, sensuality, and the celebration of the human experience. Consent, thoughtful facilitation, and clear boundaries are central to the work. Retreats are co-facilitated with his husband, Anthony, and include daily one-on-one support and coaching.
Activities
Embodiment and presence practices
Breathwork and meditation
Sacred movement and ecstatic dance
Sound immersion and gong baths
Relational and partnered exercises
Consensual touch work
Time in nature
Solo reflection and integration
One-on-one coaching and support
Participation in Ecstatic Retreats is application-based to ensure alignment, readiness, and group coherence. Retreat details, dates, and application information can be found at the link below.
Retreats may include facilitated nudity, consensual touch, and sensual embodiment practices held within clear consent and thoughtful facilitation. While erotic energy may be present, no penetrative sexual stimulation is taught or encouraged.
👉 View current retreat offerings and apply here:
Partial scholarships are available for those in need.
Ecstatic Retreats are open to anyone who identifies as masculine in body, mind, or spirit. All orientations and backgrounds are welcome. Participants must be 18 or older.
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What clients have to say
Frequently Asked
Questions
What happens in a session?
Each session is a living conversation between where you are and where your soul is pulling. Kaelan begins by attuning to what’s alive in the moment — from there, sessions may weave breathwork, mantra, visualization, subtle-body work, guided inquiry, or deep stillness. There’s no formula, because you’re not a formula.
Come as you are. Some clients practice in whatever state of dress helps them feel most at home in their body — that is always the client’s choice, never an expectation and never a request. Consent and clear boundaries are the foundation of this container, in every session, without exception.
How do sessions work logistically?
Sessions are weekly, 60 minutes, held virtually — or in person if you’re near Washington, D.C. Kaelan asks for a three-month commitment (12 sessions): deep change needs time to take root, and quick fixes are someone else’s department. Between sessions, he’ll suggest daily practices — typically 30 minutes — so the work lives in your body, not just your calendar.
What does it cost to work with Kaelan?
The suggested rate is $275 per session — and finances should never be the gate that keeps someone from this work. Sliding scale is available, no justification required. A free introductory call is always the first step, so you can feel whether this is your doorway before committing to anything. Clients who pre-pay the initial 12-session arc receive an automatic 15% discount.
Is this coaching, therapy, or something else?
Honestly: something else. This isn’t therapy, and it’s not goal-sheet coaching. It’s closer to what older cultures simply had — someone who walks beside you, reflects your essence, and helps you remember what you already are. The work is intuitive, embodied, and often initiatory. And when something arises that belongs in clinical care, Kaelan says so — and helps you find it.
Is this work affirming for queer, trans, or nonbinary people?
Absolutely. This work was born through the body of a queer man and built for everyone who’s ever been told the temple wasn’t for them. All genders, identities, and bodies are welcome here. Not tolerated — honored.
What if I’m not ready for one-on-one coaching?
Then don’t start there. Read the books. Pull a card from the oracle deck. Come to a sound bath or a workshop in D.C., or just lurk on the YouTube channel for a year — plenty of people do. The right doorway lights up on its own. Trust the one that does.
Do I have to be ‘spiritual’ to work with Kaelan?
No incense required. If you’re curious, open-hearted, and willing to meet yourself honestly, you’re already qualified. Skeptics genuinely welcome — some of Kaelan’s favorite people arrived rolling their eyes.
Is Kaelan a guru or cult leader?
Nope. No thrones, no robes, no hierarchy, no secret level you have to pay to unlock. Kaelan’s whole job is helping you reclaim your own sovereignty — not surrender it. If anyone ever asks you to hand yours over, run. (Including him.)